Darker Desires
31 December 2012
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Resolutions
by Vesperae
SMOKE SIGNALS MAGAZINE - January - February 2013
Welcome to 2013. At least we managed to survive the Mayan Apocalypse.
And at least we have our innate fascination with dates and numbers to pin our hopes for a better future on. Such distinctions are of course ultimately arbitrary, but why not indulge them, and why not shoot for the stars? (The older I get, the more I find myself clinging to optimism, because the alternative has always proven to be a destructive dead-end for me over and over again.)
Which brings me to Resolutions of the sort that we tend to set for ourselves at this time of year. And of course, none more infamous than the passing to obsessive contemplation of quitting smoking.
31 October 2012
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Kayla's Lungs, Part 5
by Vesperae
SMOKE SIGNALS MAGAZINE - November - December 2012
January 8, early afternoon (cont.)
I was waaay too buzzed on wine and nicotine and carbon monoxide and emotion to even think about driving, so I left my car where I'd parked it on the street near Kayla's apartment and walked home.
I was every bit as freaked out as I was the night before following the incident in Kayla's car, but as I walked the same cold streets with Kayla's gift bag dangling from my tightly clenched gloved fingers, I felt decidedly different. I walked with more purpose, craving the moment that I could get home, lock the door, and set the bag comfortably down. I was strongly motivated by the fear that I might run into someone I know, and get asked about what was in the bag, but I also couldn't wait to have a moment alone to try to process everything that'd just happened, so I walked quickly.
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- Kayla's Lungs, Part 4
- "A Woman's..."
- Kayla's Lungs, Part 3
- Kayla's Lungs, Part 2
- Kayla's Lungs, Part 1
- The Inner Monologue
- Wanting Danielle
- Dangerous Secret Special Toys
- Office Suite Software...After Hours
- The Joy of Tar
- Whatever You Do, Don't Push the Beautiful, Shiny, Jolly, Candy–Like Button
- A Collection of Random Fleeting Moments
- My First Decade at The Orgy
- Like Starting to Smoke All Over Again
